Well the packing is moving along. The furniture is slowly being disassembled. By the end of today all that will be left is my kitchen table and computer. Tomorrow my Dad will pack up my computer. Packing up the computer sucks because I won't have internet on it at home. At least not till I get a job. Maybe I'll get cable.

Kate and the gang are coming over for dinner tonight. I'm not sure what we're having but it should be fun. Stu is gonna help me finish the VR of my apartment too.

I have a job interview set up for Tuesday after I get home. We'll see how that turns out. I'm hoping it will work out well because I think it would be a great job to have! The best part being it would allow me to be in Thunder Bay. I think after living here for four months I learned a few things about that.

That now that I've lived somewhere else I feel more justified in saying that I love Thunder Bay for all it's quirks and oddites. I now know what it is about Thunder Bay that I love. It's easy to say you love the city you were born in because you've lived there all your life but really it's not a reason. If you've never lived in any other place you have nothing to compare it to and therefore only love it because it is the only thing you know. I've lived here and experienced the life in the BIG city in all it's glory. I can say now that I could live here too. I don't reject Toronto because it's big anymore. I'm going home because I guess that's where my heart is, at least for now.

My decision to leave has little to do with not liking Toronto. (Which I think Kate thinks is my reason for going home - Truly it is not) It has to do with the fact that I realize that I don't belong here. My path isn't here. In the same breath I don't know that it is in Thunder Bay either. All I do know is that it is for now. Where it leads me from there is anybody's guess.

I have come to understand what the allure is for my friends who have left Tbay to live in larger cities like Toronto or Vancouver. These places have so many things that Tbay doesn't. But I can also say there are many, many things to be found at home that would never be found in any other place. I don't fault them for their choices. Many of them have found the things they were looking for in their lives in these places. That's part of life, knowing what it is you need and looking to find it. I have a better idea of what I need right now. It could change in 1-2 years but right now this is what I need.